Woah just got back. Sat at the library with Joey and Cam because it was raining, and we walked to tpy to meet ger, kiwi, friar and drke for diner at bk. boring boring day. finally finished charging everything. Yesterday damn unlucky, just after I pin up my fringe I saw Mel Tan, and to add insult to the injury, my mom grabbed my hand because she asked me to walk faster. AH.  Happy birthday to jennie and jacktheripperboy

FUCK I'M SCARED AND NERVOUS AND ANXIOUS FOR THE INDONESIA TRIP IN ABOUT 7 hours. Going to sleep now byez.

God, I hate you.

" I'm here. I love you. I don't care if you need to stay up crying all night long. I will stay with you. If you need medication again, go ahead and take it - I will love you through that as well. If you don't need the medication, I will love you, too. There's nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you.. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me. "

would you hold me if you knew my shame?

(ahhhhh drake so cute right! heartheartheartheart ) eitherwither. past week was at bishan skate park tuesday to friday with D, Cam, and some alternating people. At least it's much better than Somerset, windier and good angles too. Upload pictures from camera soon. Putting up holga stuff first.  So, right. The past few days of briefings were more like longings. Brief my foot. So damn long. 9 to 5. Downloaded 25songs at school today. Today, sat with kejia at the temporary seat, where the only constant was us. HAHAHAHAHA and omg, theodore plays smooth criminal really well. Okay, so we were beside the guardhouse sitting, then this cab stopped like all cars do, then I was waiting to see who would come out, wait wait wait wait wait damn long. Then suddenly the taxi drive off then OKAY I KNOW YOU GUESSED IT ALREADY BUT, he emerges into view and BOOMz. My mind went blank, and I tried not to fly out of my chair and I didn't know what to do with my hands so I grabbed kj's rubberband and started playing with it. And being the nice guy he is, he asks us stuff. And, "Are you okay?" "-nervous giggle- uh duh yeah. " (UM NO, I'M FREAKING TRYING NOT TO SCREAM FROM OVERJOYNESS OF YOU STANDING INFRONT OF ME LOOKING OMFGWTFUX FINE AS HELL.)This is getting very boring. I just acceppted 24 friend requests lmfaowtfux. except for Imran. I never accepted. Stupid dick. Watching almost-famous.tv now. Last video now. Asuza higa is damn cute, she's so cute hahahaha okay. ericia lee hotter. yay helen su and   ugh I hatehatehate nina kay. and celestina.

as you can see, it's all in the day. people who either lazy to buy proper filter or poor like me, use cellophane. popular/artfriend sells really cheap, any color also got.

One may think we’re alright,
But we need pills to sleep at night.
We need lies to make it through the day,
We’re not okay, we're not okay.

Using mom's BB now. I honestly feel like crying. Nothing new, huh. I'm freaking out about the indonesia trip and I hardly feel prepared for it. I miss jushuju horrible, I look like fucking crap. I'm the size of a sumo wrestler, and it's getting old to be so self obsessive, but hey yeah. Drakey's sister Meg is going to diet with me after Indon. Looking forward to it. On a brighter note, I realised that if you purge less than 10-15 minutes after you've eaten, it won't hurt. AT ALL. Seriously. But after the 30 minute mark,the acid would've mixed in, so it'll be really painful. And, eating like alot of pasta/ carb stuff makes it easier to purge, and stuff like steak and asparagus makes it harder. It has to do with the txture I guess. SO, yeah. Just a tip. Anyway, lately I realised that WAH. Alot of people have something going on with the Ds!! Like, mar and D, ki and darren, kimmie and daryl, drake and I, jo and di, jerry and D. HAHAAHAHAHHAHA wowz, Ds so propular nowz. :] and right, RETARDIST. HAHAHAHAHA I missed chew peter chao, you come back liao! YAYAYAYAYAYAYYYY :+ (added on: omfg have you seen wesley's new fbdp, noice to the max. Cause it's rike peter chao)

SO. I guess you did read the previous post. No, I no longer feel hurt by you,munchkin. I no longer have any feelings for you. I guess, no I KNOW I'm glad to be back at step one. When I still knew you as (I deleted this muahahahaha) . Indifference.

The truth is you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'd apologise for bleeding on your shoe.

ps.cole HAHAHAHAAH OMFG COLEYCOLE. I'm so fooshing excited about going out with you when you come over!!!1!!1!!!!1!!!! okay, I have no idea why you type your exclamation marks like that, but you're mad gorg and I'm going mad with you don't lemme touch your cheekbonessss. AH, pedobear. Cheryl's going to be so hyped.

CHAO OUTSIDE MARrerFUckazzzsasdfhoaihpgy

hey kim, only two of us know this person. she's shermaine. you know 1e1? k, go check her out asap I deleted her already.

FUCK FUCK FUCK AH. Die die die I lost the brand new lipsmacker D got for meee :L ugh it's cherry coke vanilla even though I only want cherry coke but I cried when I put it on because it reminded me of that time I spent 17USD on a case of skittles lipsmackers and it reminded me of chicago which is a sad, sad place but it's beautiful. And I haven't been able to use my phone for days now because my brother made a stupid password and he forgot it. And I didn't know so I tried lark, 19 times and it timed out on me. Which sucks. Cause I have no phone cept for dad's BBC and I can only use it for two minutes. Stupid stupid stupid fuck. On a brighter note, I looooove my stupid holga. I know it's not professional and shit but it makes me happy. I have a shitload of color filters now, but I still like the orange and violet one best. Here, lookat my camwhore pictures again HEEEEEEE L:

by the way, this was taken a shit long time ago but. HAHAHAHAHA I cracked up like omgwtfux when I saw this. MARRRRRR I wuz youuu

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Hey, I know you'll never see this but hey. Yeah I guess I was headoverheels for you, and yes they say. Love is blind, and you never were that really nice person I thought you were. You're all sugar and cupcakes and unicorns and rainbows on the outside, and inside. I don't know how to get started. You always told me to be honest, I did. Especially when I was with you. Everything I felt, I poured it out onto you because I thought you really were interested, you really cared, you really wanted to know. How the hell did I know it was kind of like a duty, a politeness thing? And as soon as your awesome friends read this, they'll tell you how I'm being some annoying "emo" kid ranting about you again. And you'll go all like, WHUT THE HELL? WHY CAN'T SHE GET OVER ME ALREADY? in that voice and accent of yours. Hah. Don't "shawna" me? Wow, did you ever get it into that puny daft dancer brain of yours that hey, the only reason I became "like that", was because of you. Yes, OMG YOU. Sure, it was my fault for putting you up on this pedestal, trusting you completely. I know I'm horribly protective and posessive. I still wince when I see you doing things you used to do for me, but hey. I realised know, I was just some adoring dog that didn't know better right? MUNCHKIN. Fuck. Fuck all the letters you wrote that I carried around for 5 months. Fuck all the texts you sent that made me think you cared. Fuck everything you say. Fuck it. Don't say anything. Don't say anything at all.

There was this when, I knew. If you needed a new heart, I would tear mine out right on the spot, just for you. And with one last gasping breath, I'd apologise for bleeding on your shoe.

"this pudding is fat free, it's good for my figure,
and of course you don't have spoons. you stupid stupid
stupid stupid fuck."
-Oliver

~ morganna ☮ says (10:16 PM):
LOL
well
shes all
"i cant believe you did this to me"
im all
lolwut
and shes all
"you told grandma i stole from her"
LOL

Jenn: Why does the Nazi kid always wear black?
Me: ..because he's a Nazi?
Jenn: Nazis can also wear red!
_Nazi kid takes of black jacket to reveal a red shirt.
_everyone bursts out laughing.

This is taken from Jenn: Why does the Nazi kid always wear black?
Me: ..because he's a Nazi?
Jenn: Nazis can also wear red!
_Nazi kid takes of black jacket to reveal a red shirt.
_everyone bursts out laughing.

This is taken from victoria/pneurcharming's blog. really lark it.

My dad shaved his head. Now he looks like a damned skinhead. That's not really it though, really why I hate it. I hate it because it reminds me of cancer.

because that was what I thought exactly when mine shaved his last year.

used the gaga to take it from the screen, turned out pretty.

awroight, byebye alabama boy. I miss you so much I  could die.

(I'm damn busy playing sorority house on facebook so i'm just ask you to go to my facebook note, and i'll write individual mushy stuff soon, I am in love with everybody in SOTA because all of you deserveeee tooooo beeee luvedzxzxzx.)

Went up to Dempsey for tea with riding_lightning_draket1990, brought my ancient holga out. and, will post more photos soon about last day in G.

this one for tongalinga (tonglin)

film grain tre bien, non?

shawna is horribly happy blog when I have time bye

beside keamberly.onsugar.com now.

meh, I got crush on patrick star howz?

we're tching to someone. indian. frodofrdobodhodoh

I want a purple tiedye t-shirt, to match my purple ski cap. where to get?

your voice is in my head, like mah ipod stuck on replay.

credits: http://johnstewartjackson.com/Casting.html

going to inline skating nowzzzz,  I haven't eaten since the egg sandwich at daisy's house.

like mah ipod stuck on replay, replay

Thank you Mark Hill, you're one great person. Ay, he's form Zen Zen Zo in Brisbane o: LOVELY!  L: pictures soon.

JSJ super damn hardcore cute today. Heeheeeeeee when he rolled up his trousers, his smile, I don't know why but he reminds me of a little boy. Every ounce of me  aches to be close to him.I want him, I like him, I love him, I want to be with him, I want to make him smile

And hey, trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you, waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.

my self esteem is -12345678900 now, thanks alot.

To that fucking spammer, I can't believe there is somebody on earth like you. I know who you are. I FUCKING KNOW WHO YOU ARE.  On account that we are fellow 'humans', I'll give you a couple of days to get lost. If you've the conscience, you better apologise to everybody you've insulted or I'll make your life hell. Shut the hell up and stop being a keyboard warrior because hey, joy can serenade you to death, kejia can flash you till you go blind, kim will chew you up with her metal mouth, marissa will talk you to death, and we will cut your throat if we know who you are. 

ps. Looking back at all your tags, hey joyce. You were home on BOTH saturday AND sunday. Wow.. You're HOME. What? Don't you have a huge social life and gagillion friends to go out with? Jerkoff.

didn't really intend to blog today because I've been visiting my grandmomma, and I wanna talk to her and stuff so. WHAT CHANGED MY MIND WAS THIS. DO I still like okay nevermind.

MAN OH MAN.

You know, heart's lark butter sliding down hot toast.

Andandand, today hahahaha. Janel and I were waiting to see Mr. Liaoz, he walked past and just said, Hey Shawna.

From the dictionary of Ris, : GOOD = BOOMZ, BAD = SHINGZ.

therefore, goodluck sincerely to thaddeus, I really hope you aren't hurt to bad from all that glass raining down onya, but, hey thanks for letting the VA year three kids have glass pieces to melt for their ceramics :] SO GET WELL SOON. SHINGZ for your cuts though :\

The saying hey thing is, defo mofo 100% BOOMZ.

Peter chao really needs a new video, I have a shortage of masturbation material without him. MAN OH MAN. OH YEAH. Shane dawson, I've a video of him on my fb wall, and gtfo guess what! He fucking looks lark JSJ. Oompaloompaboomzboomzclapz. PowpowPOw.

my dad's namesake is damn cute today, Shore-nah -ruffles hair- Shore-nah I have talked to you in 2 hours 24 miiiiinnnnuuuttttess

Stephen and Ian're so adoraable :> AHH. Love their little brit accents. Youtoob is great shit.

What I can't wait for is Jennifer's Body. Megan Fox is the ultimate sex toy. Mhmm.

Edvard, oh Edvard.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qv9VKKXwVxU btw this is the fuckingg shit, AND at 3.00 you can see wesley's cool B/W hoodie siaal. HAHAHAHAHA and I'm posting all these pictures without link, and in large format

and last but not least, the very awesome painting that I'm really proudof, hahahaha I WANT TO BRING TO SCHOOL TO SHOWOFF SIA.

okay today tak giu, damn imba. I have cut on my face now. AND SORRY CHONG, FOR KICKING THE BALL DAMN HARD AT YOU. Eeezsh. And, fuck you ACCB for making my wife (on facebook only) so sad, and sucha bitch to be with. God. You'll be punished one day, I know I sound damn childish but I'm like that hor. Firstly for torturing bush and being my wife's friend, then for leaving sucha naice guy, then for torturing my wife. Have you had enough? You make me feel better for being such a bitch to my friends you know.

BEEBUBEEBUBEEBEEBUUU. Cool manz, I sound lika truck. Anyway, I realise I like reggae, and hiphop a whole shitload. And some electrohiphop. Very addicted to

Why you trippin, I ain't even do nothing
I'm a jerk, you ain't nevaa lie

But aye do me a favor, call me jerk one more time
YOUSA JERK, i know YOUSA JERK i know

aye aye

damn shuuang. more pictures up tonight. I think. Mom brought her laptop to the hospital. SWEEE. TEETEETAHTAHTEETEETAAAH, GEEETAH.

And heng ah. Cameron going to get a star with me, I'm getting baby stars around my momma star HAHAHA and I found old pictures of my sternum piercing because all that left's a scar. Still remeber last time, ms jacqui tiptoe to see, then jsj walk past give her the WHAT THE SHIT stare, hahaha. And mel teoh, also TIPTOE at the SMU flea, then WAH WAH WAH OMG SHINY ONE I CNA SEE! Hahaha then veron last time at macs, eee pain anot ah? Liz, eh flash hurry hurry can touch anot? SIEW. You want see come ask me. wah shit this is all I found on friendster! DAISY! THAT TIME YOU PIERCE WITH ME, GOT TAKE FOR ME RIGHT? WHEREISIT o: shit man hahaha i last time no camera. heeheee

dotdotcurve, monkeybitches.

(uploading all pictures in medium format)

Finally've been able to toucha keyboard -gropes- wheeee. and wow. I have nothing to say manz, AHAH. Friend requests. Had a fun time accepting from both weird and hot people!

45! o:

hottiezx

phew.

And, okay, pictures from yesterday. nihonmura buffet with timtam. I wasn't full lor please. then decided to go up to OSchool. Jane Lee was awesome, and I'm kinda speechless at the wolfnotes one as well.

more in facebook soon,

look at that lady's expression o:

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you. How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I daydream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at mine. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. you to remember me someday, I want you to hear our song at some random moment. And I want you to feel a stabbing pain, go right through the middle of your heart and for that fleeting moment in time, I want you to feel like I did.

but you never will, will you.

quoting jsj, "We're strong people and we don't cry about our problems."

I'm not strong. I'm without you.

Go on and gimme the weird glare, because note to you.

you're finished.

dotdotcurve :)

getting to ready to go out with timtam now. look like shit. ugh

yesn yout canw sayy i'mn doingt thisw delibratelyy butn heyt, wew aren'ty exactlyn friendst anymorew righty? yourn worstt nightmarew mighty justn happent.

likew hey saidn, eht gettingw togethey doesn'tn seemt sow fary!

On a lighter note, isn't the british music scene just so great? :]

okay, just after I posted that, dad called from outside to say I could use the computer for 15 minutes! o:

ogay. nothing much to do. gonna see the smosh, kevj, nigahiga, crocker and shane updatesss

bye!

MATH BEATS.

me plus b equals me times infinity, a pen plus pad plus some dome equals victory, this is simple to me, i do it with illest tactics, this is microphone mathematics, pass me a light so i can spark the clip i let my mind drift away from, arithmetic, to...o many variables make my heart rate unstable, i kept thinking while i put the joint on the table, I stopped talking to her last summer i told her lets break it down, but she actin like a prime number, i tried to care but i'm a bad actor, she like the rest of em i guess bitch, is the greatest common factor, unfinished business so my mind is raw, i want reall numbers yeah real mula, so i sat down to find the the right, formula, i take everything from ya, i just want stay on top like a numerator, speak about masterpieces like a curator, yeah ima creator, you're just an inequality, cause you can never be greater than m, jyeah.

Haven't used the computer in a while now, getting real tired of the net. I can't accept friend requests on my cell so I have lark, 43 friend requests now. wtfuxmanz.  after calling M  I proceeded to paint my wall with acrylic paint. Since I couldn't get those even and consistent strokes, I was ark, heck. And I did an Edvard Munch with the waves. Took afew crap pictures, deciding to put up a new profile picture. Any suggestions?

after painting I was sweating like mad, went to shower then I came back and I was lark, LOOK MA BLUE BLUE BLUE EDVARD MUNCH

okay, here're some pictures on the day of the math test.

and also, some pictures of amy's wedding that i'll upload on flickr soon. (omMFg 463 pictures)

the miracle triangle of light in the kitchen

pictures i'm considering for my dp in fb and stuff :\

okay, and from the after math and today

wheee, have a great time at dan's house when c and k came over. k's sister is gay, omg. :]

Seeing jsj and talking to him with chong. man. Why am I so afraid to lose you when you're not even mine? Ugh. N asks, if you think of someone does it neccessarily mean that she's thinking of you? Well, in an ideal world. Yes.

From that, I'm happy to say I've made an unlikely friend. They say girls tend to marry guys like their fathers, I told him. He says, I hope it counts even though it's just my chinese name! :D HAHAHAHAHA YEAH RIGHT. IF I LOOK LIKE A DANCER TO YOU :>

-

somebody whose name I'm not supposed to mention :> came back from the sushi thingy and said somebody went, and who've liked to see her face if I went with them and he hugged me. Like chonglii said, I should've went. But I didn't, because I didn't want somebody to feel unhappy. But guess what, I don't give a shit anymore. Any outings he especially called me to go to, I will. Because I won't disappoint real friends, for someone I shared so many secrets with, who actually doesn't give a flying shit at all.

I wish we were all barbies, and only barbies. The Kens can all go fuck themselves. We don't need anymore heartache from the opposite sex.

You were never a waste of time. You were just a harsh realization that I could do better. You know, markeamjoyverdawnokaynotdawn can all become asexual or lesbiens. Guess who asked why I didn't attend the openingz. wheee 2million points for awkward eyesss (picture credit: chonglii)

anddd PRIESTS FTW manz

OMNOMNOMNOMNOM. -heaarts- Anyway, today was a really bad day. I hope my coughing fits didn't make anybody flunk their essays and shit. And hello, I have no idea whos fault it is, but if you (Kimberly) think that that post was meant for you in general, no okay. No. It was only for the fact that you thought that post with the fugly tranny picture is about you. But honestly, it was about liars and as far as I know, you haven't lied to me. Unless you lied lah, if not why're you so sensitive?  I'm not upset that you lied to me, I’m upset that from now on I can’t believe you. Neither can you believe me.

Die man. One friend lost like that.

GUESS WHERE THIS WAS MADE AND TAKEN AND WHO WAS IN THE ROOM.

Ending off with something that made me cry today, hopes it relates to you guys too :]

I don't like being single, no. I live this fantastic life, full of all these magical things, and at the end of the day all I want to do is pick up my phone and share it with someone. The other day I’d sold a million records in the U.S. and I didn’t have anyone to tell. It was actually a really lonely moment.

If you listen to the warning by eminem, maybe you'll get a revelation. janel, i'm sorry if i wasn't supposed to blog because we're supposed to sit down and talk about it.

And listen, kim. I don't care if I come across as a bitch, because not only do I not care about what you think about me, I also can't be bothered by you being bothered by what I write. If you want people to be honest and straightforward with you, why don't you start by being straightforward first? If you noticed, the last post about you, your name was in it. So whatever made you think that that post with the tranny in the spanish gay pride was about you, sorry but incase you haven't noticed. Hello, your ego is getting too big. Not everything is about you, wake up. I wouldn't critiseor put down anybody that isn't worst off than me. Personally, I admit I am jealous about your self confidence, but even my terrapin knows that you can't just get self confidence overnight. And I don't have a terrapin. When janel, thanks. Janel called me to ask if I was okay, I nearly said nah I'm sick. But then, OH RIGHT. It was about you, you, you and you AGAIN.  No. contray to popular belief, I've been blogging using my phone, which btw yes, can upload pictures directly from my dslr. I use my email to post to onsugar. Meaning, I don't read anybody's blog. I was blank when she said you thought it was about you. My first thought was, huh? Then, asdfghjkl122334567890. You, kimberly yeo. Have serious issues, and not the cool ones either. You were the one who said you were okay, which by this means you're clearly not. Oh, since I'm such an incredibly untrustworthy person, why don't I just come right out and say it right? I WAS THE ONE WHO SNITCHED ON YOU ABOUT THE PIERCING. I TOLD EVERYONE WHO ASKED ABOUT YOUR WHOLE QUARREL WITH DAWN. I WAS THE ONE WHO MADE YOU LIE. I AM THE ONE WITH PSYCHO ISSUES AND you know what, believe it. I crave acceptance, but my target audience is more of the jsj+kean+kelly+risa type. I totally find the need to say all the above to them so that they'll be my friends. Why don't I just buy MJ concert tickets for them? Oh wait, he's dead. You say that you're afraid of me, why? Maybe because you know from what I told you about my parents if you actually cared enough to remember, if you're my friend lying should never be mutual.  You know what kimberly, you make me sick. Be my guest and believe in whatever you want to believe in, because I frankly don't give two hoots about what you, janel, thaddeus, mrs sara, tuanfeng, mr jackson or mar think about me anymore.

If you think  you actually want to talk, and be honest, why don't you look for me after math when I have the brainn occupancy to take an ego the size of Brazil?

my god, you make me so sick. why don't you get this in your head? No matter what you do to yourself, no matter what you wear or how thin you get. Girl, either you stop lying or disappear altogether. Then, maybe. MAYBE people will start liking you for who you are, and not for your lies.

I heard the OSchool opening night went well.. I heard you looked like a priest. Guess what, you'll still be the most adorable shit on your worst day. And I swear I'll love you. (When I'm not loving anybody else of course!) and anyway hereesa preview of what's new for my holidays, damn I wish I was lying but too bad I'm not. It's hard work going out of your way to meet and know new people but it helps if you don't lie! and okay don't drool

click for full size btw  okay, just click, I promise you won't regret it :]

now now, don't we all know you'll never make a good 88888 888, but if you throw in whore and liar, you'll have a bloody good chance.

yeah now you know, i'm a bitch. no, actually i'm stupid enough to believe your lies for so long.

you say you're fine, I know you better than that. call me c,

let me shock your friends,

<3

Superbad, now. That's a great movie.

the tittle doesn't make sense, i know.

anyway. the only and best way to describe that ccb's face is 2girls 1cup. holy shit that's right.

arc was ftf.

ugh.

I tried so hard. You know that, right? I tried harder than you could ever imagine, and now here I am, trying my best just to forget everything. Every piece of you, the way you smell, the feel of your skin. Too bad it was always so soft. I can still feel you. I think I always will,

j

i'm overtly obsessed.

yo kim. yo yo yo yo

Somebody is such a big liar. She really needs help. Goodness.

for once, I actually pity somebody. because she is so far beneath me, so worthless. just, so, fucking,

CHEAP.